Anticipating Love

I shaked

And Shivered

My lips quivered

My hands trembling

At the thought of you near

My heart rattled in its cage

Begging to break out and be set free

My words dull and blase at the fear of exposure

To the pain rendered to me when I was younger

Fleeting dreams and thoughts of love trickle from my soul

I wish to swim through the sea to taste their bitter salts again

To feel love

 

 

You’re so Tame

You’re so tame to me

I could squeeze your head

Till your eyeballs pop out

From your sockets

And you’d still see the best in me

 

I could look you dead in the eye

And shoot you in the chest

And tell you it was for the best

And you’d still think I was right

 

I could feed you lies

Telling you that the world

Is made up of tiny, colourful ants

And you’d still believe me

 

But when I tell you I love you

Believe me, because I do not lie

I hope there never comes a day

When you stop loving me

Gateways to another world

The ins and outs of a voice ringing in my head

Barely recognisable, but there

She grounds me

I’m tied to her

By an invisible cord

Lassoed by affection

It’s sudden light illuminates me with self reflection

I can feel her watch me lovingly

I look down with shame

At my broken skin, eyes leaking black

A single solo breaks out in my mind

I am lifted by a cloud to the skies

Ever upwards, ascending

Into her eyes

As I enter their gateways

A world of utter tranquility lays before me

Vast forests as far as I can see

Tall pine trees huddle around me

Calm, flowing rivers

Rocks covered with moss

As time goes on

The forest hosts a party of stars

To welcome me

Starlights appear

We eat and drink together

Telling tales of happiness

Discussing the beauty of this world

I close my eyes

Everything is here

reopening them

I find her looking at me still

Her eyes wide open

Everything is here